A Fucktoy’s Blog

A Month of High Protocol

The end is getting near enough for this month to bring it in for review, and its been quite the start of the year so far. A strong start at that too, with my tasks for January having been quite intense. Perhaps the thing that was the most scary beforehand was having to wear my, sturdy, metal locking collar 24/7… Continue reading…


New Year’s Dinner Plans

Of course I am not one to suspect my Mistress of orchestrating a set-up. But after inquiring about my New Year’s Eve dinner plans and requiring that my cooking should involve three courses I of course looked up regular dinners and found a few decent recipes that looked like it could form a good starter and main course with a generic desert. But clearly I could have expected this to return back to Victorian era recipes… Continue reading…


Historical Pegging

Apparently it was in the 1960s that the modern strap-on dildo became a thing. As a tool for men with martial problems due to erectile dysfunctions. The inventor seems to be a ventriloquist (Ted Marche). I Didn’t think I would have to be grateful to ventriloquists much in my lifetime… Continue reading…


Exercise

During the Victorian era, women’s exercise was a bit different then it is now. All that heavy movement was thought to endanger fertility or maybe even provoke hysteria… Continue reading…


Victorian Era Drug Play

In today’s segment on blogging about Victorian News, it is Victorian Era Dug Play (or well, I’m stretching that era up a little until like the 1920, but don’t tell my Mistress). Anyway, since for the two weeks that being detoxed of today’s current affairs and news and instead am forced to read things of over a 100-years ago instead – today it was the adverts for various pills that caught my eye… Continue reading…


Just Housewife Things III

Already the third installment of this short series, but apparently this is the topic that requires more than two blogs!

After the bread, yesterday was the pigeon day. Which was a recipe that immediately climbed to the top as #1 Recipe that required most cooking utensils form my full cooking history so far… Continue reading…


Just Housewife Things II

In a continuation of the previous post – now for today’s Victorian Housewife News and Activities. Like last time, I am again making bread (or rather being forced to). It’s Vienna bread this time and I have to say today it has been a whole lot less sticky then my prior bread. I haven’t put it in the oven yet, but I’m excited. The milk bread from yesterday has been very tasty as well (even if it didn’t rise as much as I had hoped for) so I have to say, I’m learning a lot so far this month and my Mistress is turning me into a good housewife… Continue reading…


Just Housewife Things

My Mistress has put me to work as a good housewife this month – inspired by the tv-show we are watching on “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives”, although She has gone for a more conservative tradwife angle than the lovely ladies from the Hulu show… Continue reading…


Balancing Act

I Want Better. I Want Worse. I Want You.

When She goes quiet, my body reacts before my mind does. My chest tightens, my thoughts race, my hands hover over my phone like it might confess something if only I stare hard enough, I begin to reread old message, and ultimately start to spiral into a dreaded over-analyzation… Continue reading…


Attending a Play Party

Yesterday I had the pleasure of visiting a kink play party, so well, guess what this blog post is about… Anyway, I had seen an advert for the play party in question and it was appealing to me since a lot of thought had clearly gone into making newer people comfortable. There were age restrictions in place… Continue reading…


The Beautiful Art of Becoming Hers

In between working on cleaning up what my Mistress has decided will be my home office (I am forced to fill up three garbage backs to throw out of stuff I have been carrying around since I started living by myself! Or face punishment), and untangling a ball of string for a macrame project, I realized something: I’m being remoulded into the submissive my Mistress wants me to be…. Continue reading…


Train Journey – Fantasy

The train rattled along the tracks, its rhythmic clatter a soothing backdrop to the intimate scene unfolding in one of the quieter carriages. Mistress, sat gracefully in Her seat, Her legs crossed at Her ankles. Beside Her, Ruby, Her submissive property, fidgeting a little nervously, hands twisting in its lap, wearing a tight skirt and a blouse that hugged its skinny body. They had spent the day shopping and now, as they travelled home. With the train being underway for a little while now, a the tension had arisen with the promise of play… Continue reading…


Wild Camping – Fantasy

Inside the tent, wrapped in a tangle of sleeping bag, bondage rope, clothes, toys, and each other, I began to stir. My Mistress sleepily blinking, Her beautiful body looking soft and delicate. I smile happily as my eyes open, my arm tightly around my Mistress… Continue reading…


The Hallway

This morning I was feeling very comfortable in my bed. I had a lovely sleep in my rather nice, newly by my Mistress decorated bedroom, under the watchful eye of my Mistress Her surveillance camera. Just not too big of an appetite to get out from the warm blankets and face a grey, cloudy day and head to the office. When I told my Mistress I was told to just imagine that I was locked of my apartment by Her… Continue reading…


Beach Day – Fantasy

My Mistress had come over for a week this summer, and part of our time together included a stay in the region I had grown up. During this time of year mostly renown for the copious amount of German tourists. It was a place with no large cities, but rather small towns and rural landscapes – and the large pull for the tourists, pristine beaches… Continue reading…


Furniture Deprived

About a month and a half ago I moved apartments –  not that I was carrying apartments from one place to the other – but you will know what I mean. Anyway, it is always a hassle to move, having to pack everything up, arranging the logistics of getting help from friends and family… making sure no whips, riding crops, sex toys or anything like that all the sudden fall out of any of the moving boxes being handled too… Continue reading…


Birthday Blog

Somewhere last month it was my birthday, whilst I was not necessarily intend on celebrating it, my Mistress was – which I really cannot complain about as all the sudden I found myself on short notice on the plane to England to spend a weekend with my Owner. I was relieved of meeting protocol, and the contents of my suitcase were mostly up to me as well, besides a short but painful pigtail whip, strapless strap-on, Lovense remote control butt plug and a black marker which were mandatory… Continue reading…


Signaling My Doom

As announced earlier, it was finally that wonderful time when my Mistress came by to visit! I had to most amazing days, being able to walk around with my Owner by my side, it really makes the whole world look more pretty. And besides walking around there was a whole lot of kink involved as well. I might even have been allowed out of chastity during Locktober for some of it, I am a very lucky fucktoy. It was just the most amazing long weekend, and even though it has only been days it feels like months ago already and I am so incredibly eager again already to see my Mistress again. However, for this blog, I will reminisce about one of the fun activities from those days while my Mistress was here… Continue reading…


Love Language

Recently a topic has been brewing in the back of my mind, making me think about it during dull moments on the train or between tasks at my work. Basically what I was wondering about was, what attracts me so much to Consensual Non-Consent, Total Power Exchange, and just 24/7 full submission to my Mistress. I do not know if there is a simple answer, or at least if there is,.I was not able to distill it during my opining on the topic. But, I did have some interesting ideas… Continue reading…


Haunted Dungeon

Most months in the year I am supplied, throughout the month, with little tasks devised by my Mistress. They are usually seasonally bound and can vary from painful, to humiliating, to arts & crafts, or even a scavenger hunt through the city I live in – really just about anything. So, currently with October my tasks have been Halloween themed. The most recent one being a writing task that I have been asked to share here as well which will be the main part of this blog post… Continue reading…


Scared Witless

My Mistress knows I enjoy a good time filled with fear and that as such, fear play & blackmail are a pair of kinks She can definitely use to bring me into a state of scared arousal. In the spirit of Halloween frightening today was a such time me Mistress showed me just how afraid She is able to make me from afar… Continue reading…


An Upcoming Visit

After what feels like an eternity of counting down the days, the moment is finally here: My Mistress is coming to visit! There is a unique kind of thrill in knowing that my home is about to be shared with someone so deeply special to me. A thrill of intense joyful excitement to spend a few days being close to Her, to feel Her perfect body against mine and be able to touch what I could, for so many months, only drool over with every merciless tease picture. To be able to hear Her voice without any digital… Continue reading…


Enter My World

Hello world, or well that is perhaps the right way for a programming language to have a fresh start. I am however not a programming language, I know big surprise, but instead a submissive in an amazing D/s relationship. I mean… I am lots of other things as well, but that is going to be the focus of this blog so let me just stick with that for now. There is still lots to talk about without having to venture too far away from that topic of choice either. But for starters an introduction is in order, and let me begin with… Continue reading…